What's wrong with being cynical, insecure and depressed?

there is nothing wrong with being a bit negative. studies have shown that people who are more negative are better business oriented,level headed,and realistic. no offense but it sounds like you've been watching too much fight club. you can be a happy person without farting rainbows. and there is nothing wrong with that. but hope is alot different than what you're talking about.but its what you need. you never know how your life will turn out so dont cut yourself short